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Monday, January 25, 2010

Wounds

Justify FullSejak seminggu dua ni...asyik teringat kisah lama je. tetiba je jd sebak. tetiba je jd sayu. Xtau le napa. tiap kali tringat..mulalah nk nangs..aduh..apa kena ngan ak ni. Haih...erm...i'm bound by the life he left behind. cewah...jiwang lak. ermm..kadang2 xpe kn. tiap org ade je cerita msg2..xkan lepas punye. tu le asam garam dunia. sejahat2 dia pn..segila2 dia pn..dia jgk yg pnh wt ak bahagia..dia jgk yg plg memahami ak..dia jgk yg telah tinggalkn ksn yg plg mndalam dlm hdup ak. bknnye xde org lain..but then i juz dnt knw y should i feel this way. he's juz a mess acctually but then i couldnt stop ma self from thinkin' bout him. i tried so hard to tell ma self that he was gone but then ma heart wont let him go. everythng that i do remind me of him. dah lbh kurang 2 taun kitorg clash tp spanjang 2 taun ni...xpenah pn sehari dlm hdup aku..ak xingat kat kera tu. hmm...ntah2 dia dh kawen..then dh ade ank. biarlah dia. kalau le...kalau...tp mmg xkn blaku pn..kalo le dia dtg blk skali pn..ak xkn tima dia..juz 1 thing je yg plg nk ak gtau...tq 4 evrythng. sbb dia dh byk mngajar ak tntang erti hdup. always look 4 da bright side. kera ni mmg le bknnye baik sgt, mmg jht pn, xhensem..nak kata kaya...erm...yg tu no komen r..tp xtau le napa i'm stick wth him. dulu..kitorg msg jrg2..bkn cm org skg couple..tiap wktu nk bkepit. kalo kol..pn same...once in a while. jp2 outstation le, meeting le pe le. erm..tp kitorg hepi je. xde mslh pn. sbb msg2..(kononnye lh) profesional. well..at least we tried to be. but then..erm..sush..ble ada org yg xleh tgk kita bahagia. susah bila ade ular betina lidah bcabang...tmbah lak yg bhati busuk n mulut longkang. uwekk...hmm..lantak r. kalo ko nak sgt..ambik le..tp awal2 lg ak da psn...ko syg r dia sama atau lbih dr ak syg dia. sbb hnya ak je tau sjauh mana ak sygkn dia. erm...sape xskt ati beb ble org yg kita syg bkepit ngn pmpuan lain?? awal2 lg ak da ckp..nak kawen lbh dr sorang ke..nk ade pmpuan lain ke..ak xkesah..seriously i wouldnt mind...tp 1 je syaratnye...lpaskn ak. fullstops. senang kn? sape yg snggup nk share laki? xde yg snggup. nak2 ak ni bukannye baik sgt pn. setan ni kot. Urm..stakat ni..lom ade lagi laki yg bleh gnti dia lam ati aku. nth r..mybe hati da ttup untk tima org lain. I lost da key to ma heart. N i dnt even know how to open it back. Seriously..i'm nt ma self. I lost evrythng..evnthou he wasn't meant anythng. Dunno..dunno...dunno...I'm stuck. I hate him damn much...really..i do...i hate him for make me stick wth him. hurm...he wll nver cme back..i hve to moved on..i know..i have to..but to eliminate him frm ma life...it sounds impossible. apa yg leh ak wt skang..focus untk capai cita2 ak. dnt bother bout yg lain. nt evn that kera. gotta be strong. got to let that demon go. let it freeze..n shut it down. Let bygone be bygone...what done is done. fullstops.




1 comments:

Milka[M]ichiko said...

yes hunn, let bygone be bygone. dont force urself too hard to forget that "kera".. sometimes it is way happier to live with the memories. but life moves on! remember that dear